This
website is my first attempt to remove the distance
between me and myself. I must thank Mano, my husband,
for being my muse and inspiring me to write…………..Now
that I have finally met myself I don’t know
what to say. Its almost embarrassing. I have never
really met myself. Subconsciously I may have avoided
the meeting. I am so used to being a working person,
business like, talking in business terms always
speaking someone else’s language. And then
the family roles that I play, that of a mother,
a wife, a sister, a daughter, always someone else,
a role, but never myself. If ever I chanced upon
myself hiding in some corner of the house I’d
pretend that I wasn’t there and if ever
I were to acknowledge my presence it would be
the ‘mother’, the ‘wife’,
the ‘working woman’ who would meet
me and the language would never be mine. I find
it strange to speak my own language, the words
sound awkward and clumsy and I am not used to
it. Sometimes I think I am beyond redemption but
every sinner is allowed salvation. I guess mine
lay in the birth of my daughter. I saw myself
every time I looked into her eyes. There I was
teasing me from the years gone by. The unexpected
reminder of who I used to be caught me unawares.
Where had I got lost? I seemed so far away almost
out of reach. Now it is time to meet me before
its too late, before I am lost forever. I want
to visit this website like any of you. Here, I
want to meet myself, get to know me and become
friends and not to let go of this friendship.
I think it is time to shake hands with myself
once again………... |
